This is my first year of blogging for family day….we have 5 kids. Last month our middle fell and broke his arm and W had the darnest time trying to get a parent bracelet so she could come and go as she pleased. They also only let immediate family up after hours. After much arguing with the staff downstairs and a copy of our marriage license then she was allowed to have one. The sad part of this is that we live in a state where we are not recognized in marriage.

This is a scary thing. W is my spouse and cant make decisions for me unless we carry around tons of paperwork for both of us. We have papers on file with the pediatrician so we can take the kids when the other can’t. It’s insane, I fell today at school and injured my knee and sprained my ankle. What if I had hit my head? Would W have been contacted for me.

No one no matter what family you have should have to worry about taking care of each other in times of need. According to dictionary.com these are all the different meanings of family

Main Entry: ¹fam·i·ly
Function: noun
Pronunciation: ‘fam-le, ‘fa-m&-
Inflected Form(s): plural -lies
Etymology: Middle English familie, from Latin familia household (including servants as well as kin of the householder), from famulus servant
1 : a group of individuals living under one roof and usually under one head : HOUSEHOLD
2 a : a group of persons of common ancestry : CLAN b : a people or group of peoples regarded as deriving from a common stock : RACE
3 a : a group of people united by certain convictions or a common affiliation : FELLOWSHIP b : the staff of a high official (as the President)
4 : a group of things related by common characteristics: as a : a closely related series of elements or chemical compounds b : a group of soils that have similar profiles and include one or more series c : a group of related languages descended from a single ancestral language
5 a : the basic unit in society traditionally consisting of two parents rearing their own or adopted children ; also : any of various social units differing from but regarded as equivalent to the traditional family <a single-parent family> b : spouse and children <want to spend more time with my family>
6 a : a group of related plants or animals forming a category ranking above a genus and below an order and usually comprising several to many genera b in livestock breeding (1) : the descendants or line of a particular individual especially of some outstanding female (2) : an identifiable strain within a breed
7 : a set of curves or surfaces whose equations differ only in parameters
8 : a unit of a crime syndicate (as the Mafia) operating within a geographical area

That’s funny I don’t see the word man and woman mixed in the definition at all. If the definition doesn’t have it then maybe it’s time for the world to stop having it as well.

I graduated from high school!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was award day for the high schoolers. It was a long 2 hours!! R and M received honors and scholarships and E received recognition for competing in school achievement against other school districts. I leave you with a picture of R and E. They are my 2 oldest bio kids.

My oldest graduates next month from high school. He is the first gradchild yada, yada. Now my Mom, Dad and my Step-Mom have known about this for almost a year. They have to fly to get here, that’s why we told them so early. My mom is coming.My father emails me today to tell me they won’t be attending because of conflicting schedules and they would love to see us when there is less conflict. Hello?! WTF???????!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

My last day of student teaching. I am having a hard day and I am struggling with the why me syndrome. From day 1 it was not a welcome there. It was good at times, I clicked with some of the students….I feel the worst about that….I left them. The week after spring break was the best I had……and then the week after that was the worst I had ever experienced. I felt I was in the room with Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde most of the time. I was not included in conversations or when I was I never had the right suggestions or ideas. It got to the point that I started getting sick from the stress…and crying every Sunday because I did not want to go back, in my opinion, to hell.

I had to make up days and it would have tacked on another week at least. I was at my wits end and realizing quickly I was heading for a major depression. I have had depression in the past and saw the warning signs. In the mean time my grades from my teacher were failing….and from my professor was going to tank my grade and give me a bad write up for a recommendation. From him  I had A’s and B’s from her F’s….. not even close.

I talked at length with him about the outcomes I could/would have. I knew I had only 5 weeks left but it felt like 50 years. By this point I hated going anyday. My unoffical last day was during testing where I was coughing horribly and the vice-principal sent me home. The cement in stone was the bitching my teacher did when I called to let her know I had Bronchitis….did I realize how many days I had missed….not how are you feeling. That Friday I started the paperwork to take an incomplete….it was hard I cried…Tuesday of the following week I went and visited my counselor and told her I didnt understand why I was always getting screwed every semester I had been in school which is true. I have never had an uneventful semester of school and I have been going since 2000.

I wondered why I had to leave everything has a reason I said…..that night Nate fell off his bike and broke both his bones in his left forearm. He spent 2 nights in the hospital…and has had weekly visits to the doc since then. I would have had to leave anyway giving the time I would have needed to take off to tend to him.

Things work in weird scenarios at times….I want a good fall semester to graduate is that to much to ask?

Well April is just about over and I am one to is glad to see it finally go. It has been a long stressful month and I know there are others out there in the blog world who have had a bad month as well. So kick out April and welcome May.

Well I thought I had posted something recently…..well that’s how life has been lately……….NUTS. I am out of student teaching and redo it in the fall………lots of drama to add at some later point…..leads to a wacked out classroom………to a mild case of Bronchitis…….to my son falling and breaking his arm. Now, lots of drama with dear daughter…………sigh I need an emotional vacation.

I am at a crossroads………..not happy about not graduating until Dec now. My son graduates from high school in 5 weeks and then college is right after that………..I’m not ready to be done being a parent to him. My daughter will graduate next year………we go to 3 kids after that from the 6 we have now.

I turn 40 later this year and I am not ready to do so. I wanted to be done with my undergrad degree before that………not going to happen…..and I am flipping bummed I can’t stand it. I wanted to be out before mine started college. It’s been an 8 year journey and I am tired….but I need to keep going…….I saw the ray of sunshine the beginning of the semester……..all I see now is fog.

I am in week 3 of student teaching. Can anyone tell me where 3 weeks have gone already? I get up go to work all day and come home. I miss being home. It’s getting a bit easier but I have until 4/30 to finish. Spring break in 3 weeks!

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Things that should/will happen this year

• The Patriots win the Super Bowl!
• I am student teaching. I don’t know if this is good or bad yet!
• We go to a two parent working family until May
• The last time I worked real time out of the house was 1988
• That’s twenty years guys
• Robbie(ours) and Mike(ours for this year) graduate from high school this year
• Our house will go from 6 kids to 4. That sounds small
• We celebrate our first wedding anniversary
•  I graduate in Aug
• I turn 40 in Sept
• I need to decide whether or not to start teaching or go to grad school.